The Absolute experience of life
I am not my thoughts.
I am not my story, body, future, past. Worry is a thought, death is a thought, confusion is a thought. Something is aware of that, then who am I if I’m not my thoughts?
I AM Being.
I was home.
Then, the second one was “Enlightenment is Love-Bliss”.
And again, my world fell apart, because that was about all my experiences that I denied, based on all the explanations I received from outside.
And I was just: “Of course!!”
Energy, the flow of Light that I was missing was awakened. Shakti, the Light, the power kept me there. Sometimes it was uncomfortable, but it was just keeping me there.
I was reaching this Bliss state that I let go of, but I did not deny it, because it was the Self. I couldn’t remain in it, because it was changing, but I enjoyed it together with the fluctuation from being to bliss.
I understood that Being there, I could speak from there, wherever I look was there, when I was listening was there, when I was moving my hand, was there.
IT IS HERE AND THAT HAS BECOME MY PRACTICE.
This Bliss is the Self, some people call it Ananda. In the beginning, it fluctuates, then it becomes more ecstatic and it feels extremely good. Although it seemed that it was a small effort to get it, it was ok because I knew that was the door.
This perspective could sound mystical because other teachers deny that enlightenment is Love-Bliss and they disregard any explanation of this.
They don’t talk about love, they use sometimes words like “divine”, and at one point one can ask itself: “Where is the Divine, where is the love?”
So, first, the message was:” You are not your thoughts, you are free, you are liberated.”
Then the next message was: “Enlightenment is Love-Bliss.”
That vibration I experienced was the Self, and I cultivated It, I stayed with It, I was breathing with It and still, I was letting It go. I realized that the vibration seems to be like a state in the mind, because was fluctuating, and, of course, when something is coming and going, you cannot say: “This is it!”
But before, I was fluctuating from thoughts to being, and that seemed to be a state also, until the understanding that I am not my thoughts came, and then I moved into Being, And so, I realized: that vibration will take me to Ananda, and from there, to Param Ananda – Love-Bliss.
I also realized something important: Love-Bliss cannot be created.
In one way you can create bliss through practice, exercises, breath, and you come to a certain point when you can create a lot of bliss. But that bliss is created by a doer, which is not actually a doer, it’s just one thought still holding an identity.
Further in this Bliss, something took over, like in the meditation when something moves you into something else. After the taking over, that “something else” felt a little flat and I had to let go because I knew it was already there. It was no ego, just Silence, and the Silence had Love-Bliss. And I saw that this can fluctuate too, it can become stronger, less strong, stronger, less strong, and that was ok. At one point, the fluctuation stopped.
Love-Bliss is a “state” of total clarity, it’s totally calm, natural, light, easy, effortless, not pushy, it’s very calming, resting, and continues as itself, by itself. When I looked at a tree, I saw it vibrating and I started to understand. What is not vibrating in this creation? And I shifted from everything being objects to everything being Shakti.
I could look at a person, a wall, an apple, a rock, everything was shining because everything was Shakti.
Whatever I saw was It.
Whatever I smelled was It.
Whatever I tasted was It.
Whatever I touched was It.
Whatever I heard was It.
And for that to happen, I had TO BE THE SAME VIBRATION.
No me could have been there.The same thing happens to you: you start to see how THIS is coming to you. You’re sitting Here, as a body first, then it seems that the room is radiating through the body. Then you see that nothing is radiating, IT just IS. It is a very strong and powerful Love-Bliss, but at the same time is subtle, light, calm, and gentle. It has no agitation, is like deep sleep, total rest, while something kicks in and shines. And that shining is light and untouchable that you realize IS UNMANIFEST.Then you understand that the world is unmanifested, therefore the world, all creation is creative-dynamic-Bliss.
When the Bliss was not constant, I was cultivating the Bliss, because the brain and nervous system needed to cope with It. As an explanation, the brain and the nervous system are like the sense organs of the Field, and they have to be able to contain this Bliss, this Light. Anyway, when you look for the brain and the nervous system, the body, the senses, you only find the Self.
Some people may think that they experience the Bliss through the body, but now you see there is no body. For others, when the Bliss starts to vibrate it doesn’t seem to vibrate as Love, but as hell. Why? Because the nervous system is not ready for This.
So, if you feel not so good in the body, most of the time, especially when you do this work, is about the Love-Bliss, the Light that needs to enter. For that to happen in a comfortable way and not to feel as you are on a rollercoaster all the time, you can do the practice you are doing in our meetings: flying yogi, breathing exercises, the moves, the mantras. When you do that you just open up for the Light.
If the Bliss fluctuates is good, you will see sometimes you don’t need the Bliss, and so you realize that is already given. When you are in Bliss, the experience may say: “Now I understand God. “or “Now I understand this or that”. Then it shifts and the experience is: “Wow, NOW I understand God!” For that to happen, something is removed, not added.
So, now you are Here, where is shining, and you understand This has nothing to do with any practice, has nothing to do with anything in any spirituality, has nothing to do with anything you’ve ever done before in your entire life!
Whatever you have done has nothing to do with This! Whatever this body does has nothing to do with This, whatever happens in the world has nothing to do with This.
THIS has nothing to do with your practice and still is all about your practice until it’s not anymore. At that moment you understand: God! What I thought I was creating through meditation and practice shines by Itself.